well i sealed the deal last night. man… i like him. i really like him. hopefully it will be painless and wonderful. im scared and excited. he makes me nervous… butterflies. its a weird feeling to like someone and for them to like you back. i text him nd he text me back… we will see.
hey i saw corey miller at the portland tattoo convention… and im trying to figure out this new guy… he is so funny, so cute and kind and im not really sure why he likes me… sometimes my self esteem is really lacking. he tells me he likes me but my baggage holds me back. i have all these outstanding gourgous friends and i get scared that this guy is going to end up liking one of them over me… i guess we can wait and see.
i do really like him though.
im back…. so so so many thought but have to sort them out on my own before i can even figure out how to put them on paper. life is good, strange, rough, confussing, lovely so on and so forth. gotta get my money and eating under control….
hhhhhmmmm… what a couple of days. i got angry. i mean i got livid!! and it all came out twords someone that i care about so so much. im pretty sure its resolved. i leave for hawaii in a couple of hoursim so tired but my heart is racing. dont know what to do but live day by day. i have to many thoughts to put them down. i should be able to blog in hawaii and maybe my thoughts will figure them selfs out… maybe not, but what ever happens i know ill be ok. :)